An earthly being does not know himself!

We know that, everyone knows that, because he does not oversee his life. It is also because he wants to experience life like a wild duck, only looking at material happiness and not knowing the depth of it and perhaps the miseries, but for which he will abandon everything, wife and children, for which he will go over dead bodies!

But Jeus of mother Crisje is not like that!

What would happen was not open to his life, or conscious, but was seen by the astral self which knew everything, it knew exactly what would happen. If Jeus had not been protected against those riches, other things would have happened and he would perhaps have wanted to make that little angel happy as well.

Why not, after all, love is love, and if you can get the good things, the awe-inspiringly good things in such a rotten world as this, why would you not do it, not accept it?

Then you would be mad if you did not do it, then you would be mad in the eyes of many, believe it, no one can understand that!

And yet, everything becomes simple again if you wish to accept the true things, wish to see them, and then you are faced with the God of all life, with Christ, but especially with your rich past, your own karmic laws, which know why you are living on earth!

And Jeus of mother Crisje came to this earth for a reason, not to experience rich love, but in order to serve later.

But poor Jeus, soon you will be faced with a similar problem and you will have to prove once again who you are, and what you want!

Fair is fair, Crisje, the satan confronts him with an awful lot of these laws, he then continually has to say to life: satan, get thee behind me!

And millions of angels take their cap off to that!

No, Crisje, they do a lot more, they bow to our Jeus!

They remove their veils and bow!

Because our Jeus will become a Prince of Divine space, and they have deep respect for that!

I do not think that Jeus will later be angry with Casje for denying him this love, when he knows everything.

If he knew everything, then he would say, from the bottom of his heart, thank you, even if she was sweet and I would have been rich, just give me this from Our Lord, because that is eternal!

Jeus has been standing at the Plein since one o’clock and is waiting for his fare, the other two drivers are also complaining because it is taking so long before people come to them. This is a useless day, Jeus feels, it is really rotten today, it is pitiful.

He is living with Johan again, and he is saving to get married soon, he does not have enough yet.

Yes, of course, Crisje, he could already have been married, but a person wants to go out now and again, doesn’t he?

And that costs money.

He experienced it with the girl from Vienna.

Going to the Scala and the opera as much as possible, in the three months that the season lasted, they did not see much of each other.

But he is now really saving, because he does not like this nonsense of being a lodger.

The girl from Vienna has earned her money, she is also saving and knows it: Jeus is the one.

Her family was strongly against it at first, she could get a boyfriend at home, but the girl from Vienna came back to him after her holiday in Vienna, she is absolutely crazy about her Jeus.

Jeus is standing in the middle and the first driver gets the passengers.

He cannot leave here, that would be jealousy, the driver at the very front has been here longer than he has.

But he sees something, and those people need a car.

They are at Saur’s and are eating tasty fish; it is two ladies and a gentleman.

He knows where they want to go and he wants to have those people, he wants to leave here.

But what will the boys say?

Then they will hate him and that must not happen.

His clairvoyance is working perfectly.

Just wait, we will do it like this.

And now both boys hear:

“Do you want to bet that I will have a fare within five minutes?”

They laugh at him.

That is their business, Jeus thinks, but now you must listen for a moment.

“If I have a fare within five minutes, you do not believe that, do you, no, but I am telling you, it will happen; let’s bet a guilder, a real guilder.”

Yes, they do that, because he will lose his guilder, of course.

Great, he can give them the guilder in five minutes’ time.

But, there his people are coming already.

just round the Witte. (The ‘Witte Society’ in The Hague)

He cranks up the car, his hand moves in space, but by talking nonsense to the boys, they do not realize that, he has got them to turn their backs to the people, just let them laugh and when the people now approach, Jeus says to the other drivers:

“My passengers are here already.

Just stand aside.

They have to go to Rijswijk and that is exactly where I am going.

Please get in, ladies.”

Both colleagues are dumbfounded by the shock.

The puzzled male passenger asks: “Yes, chauffeur, we have to go to Rijswijk, but how did you know that, you can’t know that, can you?”

“I know, sir.”

Jeus waves and says to the boys: “Listen, just keep your guilder, I am already going.”

What kind of a lad is that Joost?

They do not understand it, and so parapsychologist, what are your views on this clairvoyance?

Does it not mean anything to you?

Jeus does not have this from himself, he got it from Casje this time.

After all, Casje can find money in the woods and finds everything, even if it is completely dark on earth.

Casje would find a needle in the sea, if you wish to know and you can accept that.

The boys in the street do not know this life.

That life is completely mad, but as cheerful as the sun, so enthusiastic as well, because Jeus makes you laugh.

The gentleman passenger asks Jeus:

“What are you doing in that dirty company, driver, you are suited to something completely different.

Tell me, how did you know that we were going to Rijswijk?”

“Well, what can I say, sir.

I am a clairvoyant, if you wish to know.

I saw you sitting there, and you told me yourself that you needed a car, and that is all.

There is no more to it.”

He is already popular with the ladies.

Of course, madam, this is a man, and he is completely different to the one you have on your arm.

But, that husband of yours has money; this man is just a very ordinary chauffeur.

But, if you want to experience universal love, then Jeus is your man, but he already has a girlfriend, soon he will even be getting married!

Jeus is standing at the Plein again, he always drives there, it is the Voorhout.

That driving at the station and begging for a fare makes him sick.

This is why he drives in the respectable neighbourhood of the Voorhout.

When he comes to the Royal to collect some passengers, he could tell those people something.

Yes, sir, waiter, doorman, I have refused millions.

I am that chauffeur whom they are now still talking about in The Hague, but no one believes that, the girl from Vienna does not even believe it either.

How can you believe that?

He has not even talked to the girl from Vienna about it, he will keep that for later when he is married, then he will tell her sometime how much he has already sacrificed for her and then she will suddenly know how much he loves her life!

Don’t you agree, that means something after all, you could make a great play or a good film about it; Jeus has met his princess, but he did not want her castle.

Does it not mean something to you?

His passengers are now at the Central station and life has a go at him again at the Plein, it took a long time.

He is now at the back of the taxi line.

Now he wants to leave, he wants to get away, at all costs.

He returns to his youth.

Jeus will look the gentleman and madam in the eye and then draw them to his car.

But watch out for the driver at the beginning of the taxi line, because he is a big scoundrel.

If this were not the case, he would not have got it into his head, but because he is a scoundrel, he does it without hesitation!

They will come in a minute.

Yes, there they are already.

The first chauffeur is already opening his door, and will he be the one?

Oh, yes!

Jeus is standing next to his car.

He looks at the people.

The man is at the first car, but hesitates, that man does not know what to do.

The woman follows him; the man walks on.

The chauffeur of the first car thinks that that man is mad.

Who knows, Jeus thinks.

Slowly but surely the couple saunters up to his car and gets in.

‘To Scheveningen, chauffeur.’

That is strange, he hears the lady saying, why did you not take that first car?

These people will never get an answer to this.

It was Jeus.

He drew them to his car.

He has something every day, now and again Casje wants to have an effect on his life, this is necessary for later.

Jeus is standing in the Voorhout and now it takes too long again.

He suddenly sees something.

On the Koninginnegracht, so a long way away, near the Javastraat, there is a man and he has to go to the railway station.

There are ten cars in front of him, he drives away and goes to collect that man.

Yes, are you free, driver?

He does not even tell that man that he has come for him, it is all very simple, it is his daily job and it looks like peaches and cream, but is he a miracle?

What is a miracle?

And what can you earn with clairvoyance?

Nothing?

Yes, but, Jeus, you could earn money like water, if you wanted to show your clairvoyance in a performance, you would become world famous.

But Casje does not want that.

More people will tell him that he can earn money like water as a result of his marvellous great sensitivity and his clairvoyance, but, why do those people always think about earning a lot of money?

He will never use his beautiful inner life for that charlatan carry-on, he does not want to serve those sensation-thinking people, in his opinion this is for himself. He is not for sale, world!

He does not experience something special every day, only now and again.

But, Jeus, do you not feel what will happen?

Hendrik is also staying with Johan.

It is Sunday morning.

Jeus and Bernard are singing their arias, mother Crisje’s boys are well off.

Jeus and Hendrik have to work.

Suddenly the doorbell rings.

On a Sunday?

Who can that be?

Jeus is shaving, but walks to the stairs and pulls the rope.

What is that?

My God, but is that possible?

It is Irma.

He looks her in the eye, she is already crying.

He calls to Hendrik and says: “You just go and talk to that lady, Hendrik.

I do not have the time.”

The boys now tell him that he must not be so harsh.

The countess looked like a schoolmistress in comparison to Irma, he knows, Irma is so elegant.

He flatly refuses, he leaves her standing there crying, but Hendrik is ready and he can talk to her. Jeus does not talk to her, not for all the money in the world, not for all her crying, just let her cry!

She will have to cry until her heart bursts, he sends this message to Irma.

No, good gracious, no, I will not talk to that person!

How harsh he is.

Can you believe it, but Irma is really in a bad way.

She has been to see Crisje and she heard there that Jeus was getting on fine.

Of course, her parents did everything to persuade her to fetch Jeus.

Then she will visit Jeus.

Crisje has told her that he has a good girlfriend, but she does not care about that, she wants to have him!

How long has Jeus had a girlfriend?

She has a right to him.

Crisje cannot get that through to her.

Irma leaves for The Hague; Crisje knows that she will never get Jeus again, even if she had the whole world to offer him.

Hendrik leaves with Irma and later comes to tell him in the Voorhout what she said.

“My God, how harsh you are,” Hendrik says, “you cannot destroy a person, after all, can you?”

But is he destroying Irma?

She is now back at Crisje’s.

Mother has to help her.

‘She wants you back’, Hendrik says and Jeus says, ‘she should just try that.’

Where is Casje?

Casje is standing opposite Irma, and Jeus for that life, but he refuses to receive her, she does not get a word from him.

Back to Crisje, but that does not help her either!

Jeus continues, he drives and earns his money, he is economical, and races off to his girl from Vienna now and again, he is mad about her and more faithful than a dog can be.

Sometimes he leaves his car there in the Voorhout, in order just to see her face.

Sometimes he drives and pays with his own money because he may not run up so many kilometres without a fare, and then his boss gets money from him, only to see his darling and then he carries on.

The lady, in whose employment the girl from Vienna is, says: ‘ I hope you appreciate a boy like that, I have never seen anything like it.’

Exactly, madam, Jeus let go of a countess in order to get your kitchen princess; he loves this life and really loves it consciously!

Few boys can love their girl like Jeus can, because a universe lives in him, and his girl from Vienna gets all of that.

However, Irma has been dealt her first blow.

And there will be more; the universe has not yet forgotten Jeus’ prediction.

Jeus himself no longer thinks about his predictions, that is already so long ago, he has already forgotten things of yesterday.

Oh, what good is it to you?

Can you eat and drink from it?

Can you set up your own household from it?

No, you’ll have to agree, can you buy a bedroom, a living room, or kitchen utensils with it?

Don’t make me laugh, the ‘droodles’!

Three months later, Jeus is standing on the Plein again and gets a fare to ‘Hollandse Spoor’ railway station.

He does not feel that there is something hanging above his head, no, he races off with his gentleman in the car, the man is in a hurry.

And then he goes back to the Voorhout.

Now that he comes back to the Plein, the other boys there start to shout when they see him.

He looks at the boys and wonders what they want.

They point to the other side of the road.

He sees a lady walking there, he does not know that that lady wants him; he thinks, I am lucky, I have a new fare.

The lady is wearing her large, beautiful hat half over her face, and he hears: ‘Hollands Spoor’, in fluent High Dutch.

But with his back to her, he hears this order, the soul gets in and he does not dare to look at her, it is too busy on the street for that.

But, Jeus, Irma is in your car, what will you do now?

Casje?

What will you do?

He races to the railway station, jumps out of his car and stares into Irma’s face.

Good gracious, bitch that you are, just leave me alone.

He grasps her little suitcase and throws it into the entrance, the little suitcase flies open and all her little knickknacks, night dress, toothpaste and toothbrush, nail scissors etc., are strewn all over the ground.

A policeman is already rushing towards him and asks Irma:

“Are you being assaulted, lady?”

Jeus looks and waits; he is curious what she will have to say.

“No”, she says, “I knocked against the suitcase myself, the driver has nothing to do with it.”

You’d better, Jeus thinks, but that is her own business, as far as he is concerned, she could make of it what she wanted.

The policeman asks:

“Do you have to go any further, lady?”

“Yes, officer, I really have to go to the ‘Staats Spoor’.”

“Come on, Joost, go.”

The policeman knows him.

He is already behind the wheel and she carries on.

Jeus thinks, she is in a bad way.

That could be dangerous.

What can he do?

If that one does not get her own way, she might shoot him through the head; she is capable of anything.

Well, he gives her a smile.

She is already laughing; does she still have a chance?

Within five minutes he has arrived at the ‘Staats Spoor’ and stops.

Now the nagging begins.

“Just give me a few hours to talk to you, Jeus.”

“No, I do not have time, I have to work.”

“But I will pay for everything, Jeus.”

“I do not want to earn anything from you.”

“Do you still love me, Jeus?”

“No, I cannot bear to be with you.

I do not want anything more to do with you.

Why do you not leave me alone?

Have you perhaps been dealt some blows, have you understood now what it is about?”

“I cannot live without you, Jeus.”

“I can live without you, I do not want to see you again.”

“I will go to your girlfriend, Jeus, I will tell her everything and she will believe me.

I am your love.”

“If you do that, I will kill you.

Then I will go to my girlfriend first.

For that matter, I have told her what you are like.

She does not want anything to do with your dirty carry-on and if my girl should say: ‘yes, just take him,’ I still wouldn’t want anything to do with you!”

My God, he thinks, would she also be capable of ruining his girl from Vienna, that good soul must not know that.

Can he help it that his first girlfriend has beaten and cheated him?

Is it perhaps his fault as well?

She is a she-devil!

Whatever she says, he will refuse everything.

“Just take me to your boss, Jeus, then I will pay that man for ten weeks, but then we will go to mother.”

“That boss of mine does not want your filthy rotten money.

And I will not go a step further with you, if you want to know, I do not want anything more to do with you.”

Irma continues to nag, but he cannot be reached.

“Then I will go to mother”, she says, to which Jeus replies:

“Yes, do that, mother will help you.”

Jeus thinks: then I will be rid of you.

Irma continues:

“Will you not give me just one hour then, Jeus, to be able to talk to you?

My God, is that too much to ask then?”

“Just leave God out of it, He will not hear you anyway.”

“Jeus, how harsh you are.”

“I am not harsh, but you have murdered my heart.

I do not want to see you again.”

“Jeus, do not be so harsh, I will kill myself.”

“That is your own business.”

“Jeus, but Jeus, do you not have a heart anymore?”

“Yes, but not for you!”

“Jeus ..., but Jeus!

Here, take a thousand guilders from me, then I will feel that I have made up for something, Jeus.”

“No, I do not want your money!

I do not want you for anything!

I do not want your filthy money.

Even if I were a vagabond, then I still would not want you.

Even if I had to die, then I would still not want your blood if you could save me.

Go to hell!”

“Jeus, how harsh you are, whatever has happened to you?”

“Nothing has happened to me, but something has happened to you, you have started to realize what you have lost.

Haven’t you?”

“Can I not make up for it then, Jeus?”

“No, that is not possible.

I am really not angry at you, Irma.” But not that, he feels inwardly, for the first time he pronounces her name.

She thinks, just persevere for a while and then the rest will follow, but he soon lets her know that he is deaf and dumb to her pretty face and completely blind, he does not even see her.

But, he still thinks how beautiful she is, the countess was just a kitchen maid in comparison to Irma, but she is still not a patch on his girl from Vienna!

“Just give me this evening, Jeus, then we will go somewhere and I will pay for everything.”

The answer is no, and it will remain no!

She finally gives up; then Crisje will help her.

Will you just put my suitcase down there, Jeus?

He does it, he puts it down at the entrance, but at the same time she wants to throw her arms around him.

Jeus is prepared for it, he does not trust her an inch and pushes her away from him.

Irma falls to the ground, she has a nosebleed, and some grazes on her beautiful face.

He takes off!

She goes after him, however. When he gets to the car, she grabs hold of his raincoat, so that it tears open up to the neck.

At the same time a porter has become involved and asks the lady:

“Are you being assaulted by this driver, lady?”

“No, I slipped.”

It is strange, did that man not see that this chauffeur pushed the lady away from him or assaulted  her?

‘Get lost then if you do not want any help’, Jeus feels this from him, and smiles.

Meanwhile he cracks up the car, he calmly sits behind the wheel, she is still begging, but, suddenly he accelerates and disappears.

So, that is over, I will never see her again.

Irma leaves; she goes to Crisje, and in the train she cries until her tears run dry.

She faces Crisje with a tear-stained face.

Now what?

Crisje gives her all her love, but says: “You will never get Jeus back, you have lost him, when I told you that years ago, you laughed at me and him.

Now you see Jeus.”

Irma stays with Crisje for four days and nights; day and night she begs Crisje for help, but she can do nothing for her.

“Then I will die”, she says to Crisje.

“I cannot live without Jeus.”

“I understand that”, she gets to hear from Crisje, but neither she nor Jeus can help her.

“I want to die for Jeus.

I want to do everything for him, mother. Mother, just help me, help me to get Jeus back.”

Finally it is clear to her and she leaves for Germany.

Crisje thinks, she will get over it.

But that is not true, Crisje, now what Jeus predicted will happen, she will die of grief, as a result of her love, she really cannot live without Jeus.

Is it a pity?

Yes, but she should have known that years ago.

Now the time has come.

Four weeks later, Jeus, and his girl from Vienna decide to be married.

Imagine, he thinks, if that bitch should come back sometime.

He would not want to lose his girl from Vienna for all the money in the world, and not for a thousand Irmas.

But when he drove away from her, thought everything over in the Voorhout, he wondered whether he should have given her an hour to talk, it is the least that he could have given her.

But no, she must not have anything, desperate diseases need desperate remedies.

The knife had to go in, right through her heart, then she will learn something at least.

And then ... he forgot the whole episode

Jeus is standing in the Voorhout again.

He has got his own little house, is happily married, and is getting on fine.

But, the last few days he has still been thinking about Irma and that may not happen, because that is just cheating on your wife.

And he does not want to cheat her with one single thought.

However, he thinks about Irma day and night.

What is the matter anyway, what does that bitch want from his life?

Now that he feels the word ‘bitch’ in himself, he also gets a taste of it and now it is as if he could cry, it is so pitiful.

For a whole week he runs around with this misery inside him, but does not let anything show.

When he is at home with his girl from Vienna it leaves him, but as soon as he puts a foot outside the door, that sadness comes back to him and then he could cry.

Cry about that one??

In Germany someone is crying out for Jeus.

Jeus does not know that telegrams are being sent to Crisje for him, he does not know that Irma is dying, is raving day and night ... raving about him, she screams for Jeus day in day out ... Jeus.

‘Jeus, come back!’

The doctor says, ‘That Dutchman has Irma’s life in his hands.

Go and get that person.’

Irma’s father appears before Crisje.

The man has to take Jeus with him; it concerns his child.

The man begs Crisje to help him.

Jeus has to come.

Jeus will get all his worldly goods if he just goes with him or Irmgard will die.

My God, do you no longer have any faith then?

Yes, of course!

Crisje goes to her confessor.

The man enters along with Crisje.

She tells about the drama, and that Irma is dying, she tells her confessor everything, including how Jeus suffered because of Irmgard.

Irma’s father now knows, there is no longer anything to be done about this.

And then the answer comes, it is harsh and cold, it is the Grim Reaper’s Scythe!

Jeus has fought his battle; Irma must accept hers; there is no other solution!

He returns to his daughter a broken man.

Irma looks at the door, and she has been doing that for three whole days.

Finally her father appears, but without Jeus.

The doctor along with a few specialists are also there. The whole neighbourhood is in a state of commotion, turned upside down, because this concerns love, do the professors not have a cure for that?

When Irma saw and realized that he had not brought Jeus ...

God, my Father, it is bad, of course, it is inhuman, but what should Jeus have done?

A stream of blood from Irma’s mouth is her answer.

Another one and another one, she looks pale and is moaning, you can’t bear to look.

Her mother’s heart is breaking, her father is already a broken man, and the doctor looks as though he has lost his wits, but all of them now know who Jeus was!

‘Obviously, this can no longer be helped!

There is an invisible figure behind the bed, but no one sees Casje.

But he is there.

Irma will die from sorrow and love!

He knows, because he himself gave Jeus this prediction!

And look, Irma’s soul releases itself from her bodily systems; Casje, as a cosmic master, takes care of her and will take her to her own sphere, where Irma is attuned to, but she will live.

Irma is lying in his arms, Casje looks after her soul,spirit and astral personality; the parents may bury what remains.

And they do that, but they have lost their naughty Irmgard.

lost their only child, and that because of Jeus of mother Crisje?

Yes, no one knows whether it is an honour, but that girl cried herself to death because of Jeus, she is completely dead to this world!

Only years later will Jeus be allowed to know this. From Crisje?

Jeus will get to hear it and that will be through his Casje again, and that will not take years, world!

Irma is dead, but she lives ‘beyond the coffin’ !

Her blood left her briefly, there was no more to it, but it is amazing what love is capable of.

Crisje knows all about it, and as a result of this, believe me, naughty Irma was something special, after all, she cried herself to death over the real and pure love, which she now knew that Jeus possessed and could give her.

They chose money at that time, ‘Mr Jozef’ had to leave, after all!

You could not spare anything for him, he was just a very ordinary country boy.

Did you not laugh about him behind his back with his brown suit?

Irma experienced her Grim Reaper. She would have just murdered Jeus inwardly anyway, she understood him too late, and then accidents would have happened.

However, it would have been possible, yet, everyone needs to be dealt blows for this purpose. It is only then that the realization of love and happiness will come and a person will learn to appreciate, to love, understand that this whole material existence has no meaning.

It was a drama!

How the parents suffered.

What would they not have done?

They would have given Crisje all their possessions, promised her the world, if she had sent Jeus back to save their child.

Along with many other people, they have experienced and had to accept: not everything can be bought with money!

What Crisje experienced in those days was worse for her than the loss of her dear Tall One along with the terrible blow which she had to accept and got to experience after his death.

She felt sorry for Irma, she took her into her heart and talked to her; she told her everything about Jeus again and only then could she leave.

‘I will die, mother Crisje, I can no longer live without Jeus.’

Yes, I’ve heard that one before, Crisje thought, but Irma went, she felt the spatial love of Jeus in her heart!

She now knew; that’s it!

And nothing else!

And it started from that moment onwards.

Slowly but surely, the longing to possess that love destroyed the bodily systems.

Before the eyes of her parents and the doctors her spirit succumbed.

Jozef must come, but he did not.

Even if Crisje had written, he would have let her die!

Is that harsh?

The Grim Reaper’s knife had to enter her heart!

No other Romeo’s and Juliet’s are needed for this, after all they killed themselves, and were of no comparison to Jeus and Irma. Jeus stayed with Crisje, because he did not want to cause her any sorrow.

Every tree in Montferland can tell you all about it, the battle has been fought, in order to accept the very last and ultimate thing, the will to continue living.

Jeus managed to do that and millions of children of Our Lord have sacred respect for that, he kept his head above water!

Jeus is building his little nest, the winter is passing, the summer will follow, and then we will see him back in Scheveningen.

He has to go back on the streets to play the part of taxi driver, but now he hears inside:

‘Jeus, begin for yourself, what the boss can do, you can do as well.

Just do it!’

Casje wants him for himself, he can then carry on in his own space, in order to draw him consciously to his life.

All Crisje’s children have flown the nest.

Teun is also already busy learning something, Miets is no different. Well, Tall One, they are just like you in this and not like Crisje, they want to go off into the world.

And the God of all life knows that it is good!

We will now see how Casje releases him from society, but through the material laws to the spiritual ones; up until now Casje has been able to lay beautiful foundations.

Yet further and higher, but now Jeus of mother Crisje will be faced with his master!