Of course, when it is time Jeus leaves for Jan and Anneke’s house.

Jan has set up his paradise between Stokkum and the Quay, where no one can disturb him, and he can enjoy himself with his wife and his daughters of five and three.

Jan is busy in his garden and is completely engrossed in his hobby when Jeus comes.

Anneke is there, but the children are already in bed.

Jan already knows the girls are nothing like him.

Later they will marry and that is all.

More is not needed either, but the youngest is ailing and weak, whereas he and Anneke are the picture of health.

Nevertheless, he also gives in to these laws.

Jan is not so blind or so stupid, that he demands everything from this life; he looks to the future.

And that is the balance for him and Anneke, also the ‘last judgement’.

He knows that you are powerless against all these human miseries, if there is a question of ‘karma’ ... about which the books have told him.

What did you say, doctor?

Yet, Jan worries about all these mighty problems and cannot yet understand that you give sick children the light of life, whereas, you are the picture of health; even if he can accept everything, because it is the grandparents and great-grandparents who are guilty of this human breakdown.

Jan Lemmekus thinks so deeply, and it goes without saying that they consider him a learned person here!

Anneke asks Jeus to have a look at the children.

“Here is ‘Jeus of mother Crisje’, Anneke.”

It is the oldest child who is named after her.

The girl knows Jeus and she can already chatter nicely.

Mieneke is sleeping, but she wakens.

“Good evening, Mieneke.

Will you give me a hand?”

He counts himself among the adults.

The child gives him her hand and without really wanting to, he suddenly descends into this life.

Now that he is one from soul to soul, he feels as the child feels, and that little machine speaks to his inner life.

He does not know why this suddenly happens just like that and it does not matter to him either; it has happened!

It is just flying into another person for a little while!

Anneke has already heard about the small drama.

She also knows about Gradus and considers all of this with regard to Mieneke.

Jeus sees and feels something for her child, but then it happens, he tears himself loose from Mieneke’s soul and he feels himself again.

“Good night, girls, sleep well.”

He has already forgotten the children, but Anneke has followed him and now asks:

“What did you see there with Mieneke, Jeus?”

Only now does he waken up with a shock.

Really, he experienced a sleeping sensation for a few seconds, and saw peculiar things, and it was not so nice for Mieneke.

He says to Anneke:

“What did I see?

Nothing!

Nothing, Anneke.

What should I have seen?”

Jan listens sharply, and it is he who takes over the conversation, because this is happening too quickly.

Anneke asks him straight, and that must not happen, you must approach these people differently.

Jan knows that he can do that, he will get Jeus where he wants him in a roundabout way.

Jan already begins:

“Let’s first just look at the birds, Jeus”, the sage tries.

Jeus cannot get enough of them.

Are they not just beautiful?

They are just like the ones he saw with José.

In the heavens, in the Forecourt of Our Lord he saw these beautiful species.

They landed on his hand and were not even afraid.

Yes, he will never forget that!

“I know this one”, Jan hears him mumbling.

“This one as well, the colours are the same and its head as well.

And that one was also there.”

The game begins!

Anneke is all ears; she does not want to miss anything.

She is also thirsty for spiritual space, for worldly wisdom from above.

You do not experience that here every day and when it sometimes comes to you, it is like nonsense, raw cackling, it becomes an inhuman carry-on, if you think about it, but this?

That is something else, they have known for so long already and they have heard from their friend Mina, who first changed Jeus’ nappies.

“Where did you see these birds, Jeus?” Jan asks.

Yes, isn’t that something?

What must he say now?

Jan helps him when he says:

“But you can tell us everything of your life, Jeus.

Mina has informed us.”

“Oh,” he says, “was Mina gossiping?” but he immediately continues.

“Where I saw these birds, Jan?

In the heavens!”

Anneke opens her eyes wide.

Her sweet heart now absorbs everything that comes for her soul and spirit.

Jan enjoys it, he feels that he is now experiencing lessons.

He sits down on a bench, quietly on his backside, between the flowers and the radishes, the beans and the lettuce.

Only the ‘Tree of Life’ is missing or they would actually be sitting in the real paradise of Our Lord, but there is no snake present now!

That monster – Jan has known that for so long – and the whole depiction of it is good for ‘herd animals’, not for right thinking and sensitive human children like him and his Anneke.

They will enjoy these little apples which will soon, and totally out of the blue, roll in front of their feet, coloured by the rays of sunshine of Our Dear Lord, they will bite into them, and eat every single little bit of them, no skin or core will be left over.

It is a delicious dessert, Sunday soup ...

You can smell a nice smell and from inside, you do not believe it, you feel so happy, like the angels in heaven feel, since they are near the Source, so to speak, it was born there after all, and all life was given a core, also a soul and a spirit.

Isn’t it true, after all?

And now you can feel a great and strong person, if you want to you can still shrug your shoulders at a couple like Jan and Anneke, Our Lord wants HIS children to examine everything from HIM and to keep the only good for themselves and HIS universe!

However, why has Our Lord planted a couple like that in the back of beyond?

Should HE not have given these souls a place in the East where they belong anyway?

They are like flowers of one colour, these two, man and wife, it is one body, also one thought.

If you see them and experience them, you will cry inside, because you miss it yourself and do not know what millions of human children long for.

Is that so hard after all; is Our Lord unjust?

Does he give one life everything, and does He let another person, who is also HIS child, starve?

You can see it, questions; who will answer them?

Jeus feels happy with these people!

He feels that these people kiss each other every moment due to their loving thoughts, and they do that from inside.

They are very like his Crisje.

Mother Crisje could do that as well with her Tall Hendrik, his father, they were always kissing, but you never saw anything ... it is Life!

This spiritual nobility is peculiar here in the ‘Achterhoek’ (part of the Province of Gelderland), it is supernatural and cannot be understood.

Jan has already known Anneke since she was seven and they both knew then, they told each other, that they would become man and wife and it came true.

“Yes, Jan”, Jeus continues, “I was in the heavens!

I saw the heavens myself.”

This is now a spiritual kiss for Anneke and Jan.

They enter the paradise which they know is different from the way people have fashioned it on earth.

Jeus feels these people are one unity like Father and the church.

In addition, another consciousness which follows Jeus, says: Golgotha stands and lives between them, for which Jan and Anneke would live and die.

Jan asks:

“Were there birds there like these, Jeus?”

“Don’t you know then, Jan, that you can walk and look outside your body?

No, not quite like that, Jan.

I mean, there are even more beautiful birds than here, but these look like them.”

It is going well, it couldn’t be better, and the questioning has begun.

“What did you say to me just now, Jeus, that I can walk outside my body?”

“Yes, Jan, I can do that, but then I have to be asleep!”

“Is that just like when you went to play on the clouds?”

“Do you know about that as well?”

“Let’s agree with each other, Jeus, that we know all about you, then it is easier to talk, isn’t it?

Mina has told us all about you.

Do not be ashamed, you make us so happy.”

“That is good, Jan.

I like being with you, as long as you know that.”

“We do know that as well, Jeus, and you can come whenever you feel like it.

Will you remember that?”

“Of course.”

“Now, tell us.”

However, he has to think first, it does not take long and then he says:

“Yes, how can I put it.

That playing on the clouds happened of its own accord.”

“And that thing with your father?”

“That thing with father was different, Jan.

Father came back, you know?

But father could still talk to me.

But then he was already lying in the coffin!”

“And did you hear him like you are now talking to me now, Jeus?”

“Exactly the same, Jan.

There was no difference at all to be seen.”

“What did you see just now with Mieneke, Jeus?”

He falls back and again experiences those thoughts.

Can he tell these people that they will experience misery?

Jan follows him and says:

“Do not be ashamed, Jeus.

Forewarned is forearmed.

But you know that.

Don’t you?”

Now he utters of his own accord: “I was sick with Mieneke, Jan.

She is sick, Jan, she is not strong, I believe.

I saw Mieneke somewhere else!”

Anneke becomes pale, Jan does not move a muscle, but they know now.

This life will leave; they may not keep it.

There is something, and they feel that.

The feeling creeps into their hearts; it lives there and is felt as fear.

It will not leave; it remains.

It is as if it speaks to them day in day out ... until they want to accept the feeling, and only then will it say nothing more.

It is strange, but you sometimes hear it from other people as well.

Then, a while later, sometimes even years later, it happens.

You then experience that fear.

One chance in a hundred and now you are standing in front of the grave, or you see that other person, or yourself, again in a hospital and you are staring!

You may now bow your head.

Another power, which is stronger than you or whatever it is ... commands!

You can bow to it, just cry until there are no more tears, but that power or that law does not pay any attention, not the slightest to your crying, even if you collapse, even if you would give all your possessions, everything, your castle and your money, your inventory as well and even if it includes some Rembrandts, it will not help you at all, because that character is never ever to be bought.

He is called the ‘Grim Reaper’, and you know, he is not for sale.

Jan and Anneke know this very well, and they accept it!

Jan continues, but he was also at a crossroads for a moment and did not really know which path he should follow, a while later they chose the most difficult one, but also the most certain one, the only path, which will lead them and all people to HIM and of which HE knows that it is the right one!

“So, Jeus, was that the case?

Did you really speak to your father?”

Jan feels the conversation has been disturbed.

He and Anneke have said all they can; it certainly was a terrible shock as well.

They got an enormous blow right at the back of their heads.

Almost like that, calculated and thought-out, which you cannot resist or do anything about.

Because what human child has eyes in the back of his head that can see and receive this?

Jeus probably, of course, he can do that and Crisje.

And other people as well who are strong, have a faith in God, which moves mountains, or they also fall and feel a hefty blow inside in order to succumb for a while or for a long time.

Anneke disappears for a moment.

The good soul as mother undergoes this blow, to which Jeus reacts and says:

“I should not have said that, Jan, should I?

Mieneke ... I mean, Jan?”

“Jeus”, Jan utters,“ we are not afraid of the ‘Grim Reaper’, if you can only believe that.

Yes, you do not want to miss her.

Anneke is in a bad way.

When you just have her, Jeus.

You will understand me.”

Jan now knows, he is talking to an adult, age no longer means anything now; it is the feeling!

In addition, Jeus gives Jan a beautiful flower, an ‘Orchid’ from a space, when he answers:

“Of course, Jan.

However, as long as you know that there is no ‘Grim Reaper’.

But, then why should Anneke get worked up?”

Jan calls Anneke back and when she is there, Jan asks:

“Say it again, Jeus, what you just told me a moment ago.”

“Exactly the same, Jan?”

“Yes, exactly the same.”

He finds it strange, but he can understand Jan, and Anneke listens.

“But that is natural, Anneke, as long as you know, that there is no ‘Grim Reaper’, then you do not have to let him suck at your heart?”

Jan almost bursts out laughing, but he controls himself completely.

Nevertheless, he will laugh about it later.

What did he suddenly come out with again?

Jeus does not bother about anything, and Anneke now gets to hear:

“As long as you know that he is only fooling people, you do not have to approve of that, Anneke.

That is enough to drive you mad.

No, that is so to speak, burying your head in the sand and calling out, I am not here.

Of course, that is wrong!

Good gracious, my father lay”, now he feels inspired, “in his own coffin and could talk to me myself.

Then I laughed in the Grim Reaper’s face, Anneke.

And he didn’t have anything else to say to that, he took off because of me, because he knew that I would not let myself be pestered.

He cannot fool me, and when he realized that, Anneke, he took off and I did not see him again!

Good God, I have not had to laugh so much in my life, Anneke.

The sexton thought that I had gone mad.

Aunt Trui let me smell at a bottle for my nerves.

But I was not bothered by nerves.

I was laughing at father, because he was fooling them all!

He was there, Anneke.

He looked at all those people, who came to pray for father.

He cheated all those gossips, now, do you still have to cry?

Must you then think that they are dead?

All those people are standing at the grave crying, they cry until their tears run dry and they can no longer go on.

About that dead person, who is not dead, but remains alive.

And he is standing there laughing at them.

I know that, Anneke!

I saw it from my own father!

I was able to experience that!

No one can take that away from me, that is from myself!

I saw that with my father and mother!”

Over to you, Anneke, anything else?

How does that apple taste?

Jan says:

“Is that the case, Jeus?

And you saw that clearly as well?”

“Clearly, Jan?

Clearly, you ask me?

There was no change in my father, if you want to know that, and you can believe me, Jan, that is the truth!”

Jan continues, the spiritual iron is roasting hot when he asks:

“Why did you have to laugh so much behind the coffin of your father?”

“Oh, you mean when we brought father to his grave, Jan?”

“Yes, that is what I mean.”

“That’s a good one ... but I wasn’t messing around, Jan, that is not true.

People said that, but that is a big lie.

That was father, himself.

Father came back to me as he had promised me as well.

And that happened, Jan.

Gerrit thought that I was playing silly pranks, because I wanted to keep up with father.

He had those big steps.

You know that anyway, don’t you?”

“Of course, and then?”

“Well, I wanted to keep up with father and Gerrit thought that I wanted to imitate father, and then we got into an argument.

Father went with us to the church and then to the grave.

But I do not want to talk any more about it now.”

Jeus sees Crisje before him and her tears for father, her Tall One, an event which affected him deeply, and from which he still feels the blows.

However, Jan feels that they are now getting the chance to listen to knowledge; it is a space.

He keeps him talking, and taking in these lessons in to the full.

Meanwhile Anneke pours a glass of lemonade and Jan continues, but there is Mina as well.

“You see, Mina, Jeus was telling us about all sorts of things and that he talked to his father when he was lying in the coffin.

I will just continue, okay or not?”

And to Jeus he says:

“When you talked to your father, Jeus, when he was lying in the coffin, were you not a bit afraid then?”

“What would I be afraid of, Jan, that was my own father, after all?”

“That is all very well, Jeus, but he was different, after all, wasn’t he?

He must have looked different.”

“No, Jan, he was exactly the same.

He spoke to me and that dead face had nothing to do with it.”

But it is now a revelation for himself.

Never ever, he feels now for the first time, has he thought about it so deeply, Jeus continues: “No, my father was exactly the same, Jan,

And had not changed a bit.

Father could still laugh, and he still had his moustache, just as long as when he was here.

He was no different, at all.”

“But do you not think that it is really something strange, Jeus?

You must not forget we are just ordinary people.

We do not have or could imagine that.

We cannot see in there.

That is another world, after all?”

“There is nothing to it, Jan, you can do it as well.

That world is here as well, isn’t it?

However, there you have nothing more to complain about, Jan, it is finished.

You have nothing more to say there.

You can listen to Our Lord there and work hard as well, or you will not get anything to eat.”

Anneke also gets a little ‘orchid’ like that, when he says:

“And there are children there as well, Anneke.”

She grasps this moment and asks: “So, are there children there, Jeus?”

“Of course, Anneke, otherwise José could not have played with me, could he?”

“José”, Jan asks, “José?

That is a nice name, Jeus.”

“Yes, that is true, Jan, that is a nice name.

He got the name José from Our Lord.

The Tall One told me that!”

“Your father?”

“No, not my father.

The one I mean is another Tall One, but he looked exactly like my own father.”

Jan looks at Mina and Anneke.

The gates to heaven are now wide open.

They hear something, which contains heavenly music.

Jan quickly continues:

“Who is that, Jeus?

May we know?”

He asks from within his guardian angel, of whom he knows, if it concerns life, he will sometimes get a direct answer as well.

He asks:

“Can I tell these people, tell them everything about you?”

A while later he already has an answer and Jeus hears his Tall One saying:

“Of course, Jeus.

That’s what I just popped in for” ... and he can say:

“Here he is, Jan, here!

He is standing there in the air.

He is looking at all of you and he wants to come and listen for a moment.”

It is for Jan and both women as if they receive Our Lord.

They almost burst from happiness and bliss.

Jan blurts out with enthusiasm:

“Isn’t that something, Jeus?

Have we got a visit from on high then?”

Jeus now feels very different.

It does him good that these people want to understand him and feel sacred respect for his invisible friend.

Jan already gets to hear:

“That goes without saying, Jan, doesn’t it?

That is a high up one!

That is an angel, Jan ...”, and he now turns his spiritual eyes to his master and friend to look and see whether everything is okay and he is not going too far.

Jan now says to him:

“So, Jeus, is he here?

Then we may consider ourselves fortunate.

Has he nothing to say to you?”

“No, but I could already see him when I was three years old, Jan.”

“Tell us about it, Jeus.”

“Then he brought me small children whom I could play with.

I played with those children, Anneke.

And therefore I also know that there are children that live there!”

There! ... An ‘orchid’ of unprecedented beauty for Anneke.

The flower did not fall at her feet, but was immediately planted in her heart, in order to bloom there further, and for later when Mieneke will also experience her jump over the coffin, but where those divine flowers now come from and just like that are given to people, who are open to them and long to be able to receive them.

Mina pushes the lecture into a direction determined by herself, when she asks:

“What was that story about that money, Jeus?”

“My angel took care of that, Mina.”

“And that money was there, wasn’t it?”

“Yes, Mina.

I had a nice time at the fair then.

I am still grateful to him for that money, Mina.”

“I can understand that, Jeus, of course.

And you saw that lying in the woods just like that, Jeus, didn’t you?”

“Yes, Jan, but my angel brought me there.”

“How, Jeus?”

“A ... a ..., I will just say a white piece of rope came hanging down.

And it went into the woods and I walked after it, until I saw that money lying there.”

“So that was a length of cord, was it, Jeus?”

“Yes, it was as though it was made of silver.”

“Can you not just ask him about that then, Jeus, now that he is here anyway?”

He listens and hears the words: “No, Jeus, not now, but later.”

Mina says:

“Do you not understand then, Jeus, that is the connection with everything.

That guardian angel of yours found it, of course, and he gave it to you.”

“But what does connection mean, Mina?”

“Do you not understand then, he knows everything!”

“That is your contact”, Jan says, but he asks:

“What is contact, Jan?”

“Contact is, Jeus, that you can talk to him.

That is contact.”

“Oh”, he says “then I understand”, and it is also new to him.

Mina continues and asks:

“How did you know, Jeus, that your mother would have a girl, was that through your guardian angel?”

“Yes, Mina, of course, I suddenly got to know that and it happened of its own accord.”

“Have you talked to your father recently?”

“No, Jan, he must work for Our Lord, and he has other things to do than chat to me.

But father will come back, won’t he?”

Jan wants to know more, but he gets a slap on the wrist from that other world and closes himself off.

Jan now shows Jeus his beautiful flowers.

He intrudes in those lives now as well, because Jan feels that Jeus can experience those lives, and those lives bring him to the East, Jeus can say exactly where they come from, which Jan knows as well!

Also through his birds, he gets this proof of feeling, being one with all of life, to which Jeus is sensitive and he possesses that sensitivity.

He simply looks behind the life, which is amazing for their characters, and Jan knows, for the whole of this world.

You can learn from it.

Jan knows that behind all of this lives a prophet who can be found in the ‘Achterhoek’ of Gelderland, and this humanity gets still something to swallow from it.

Certainly, Jan thinks, this life is infallibly conscious and has a great character!

Jeus also has a wander around, the visit has lost its attraction, and Fanny has got into an argument with Gerrit of Jan and Anneke.

He has to leave and quickly.

Fanny forces him to leave and this is a sign for him that the animal feels very unhappy, otherwise Fanny would not make any trouble.

He must also have a romp with Fanny before they go to sleep and that is something completely different for him!

It is better; talking about all those things does not mean a thing to him.

He switches off from everything.

He is now a boy again, a wild duck, a jump in the field, his boyish pranks take hold of him and that is also something completely different, which people do not understand.

Jan does, so does Crisje, but later?

Will people understand it then?

“Have I said too much, Jan?” Mina says when Jeus has left.

“No, Mina, you actually said far too little.

Today we were already able to experience a prediction.”

Mina now hears what Jan experienced, and then she can say:

“Believe me, Jan, he will give this world a present sometime!

And it goes without saying that they will not understand him.

You can work it out for yourself.

Did you see how his face started to change, Jan?

He saw what we could not see, and it was right under our noses!

Is that true or not?

You should have seen his eyes, Jan, when he was born.

I saw that with him and so did Crisje.

It was so obvious, he had eyes in his head like marbles.”

“Yes, Mina, you are right.

And he saw and felt that our Mieneke will get sick.

What he saw with his father, he also saw that with Mieneke.

Mieneke can soon play with Our Lord.

But we, Anneke and I, we can still enjoy her, can we not?

We are already grateful that we may know that, and we are not so crazy that we will bury our heads in the sand.

What he was talking about, Mina, we aren’t as wretched as all that.

We are not pathetic souls; we won’t buy that any more.

And it goes without saying that Crisje would not miss him for the world, she told me ... and now I can believe it.”

“Of course, Jan, if nothing can be done about it, then you must both give in to it.

I can no longer stand that monkey business of that priest.

He only sees bad things for people.

There is no light any more for those poor souls.

But what is this then?

That business of eternal damnation, Jan, is really terrible.

Who can deal with that any longer as a healthy person?

Nobody!

Who can continue to believe in that?

Can He here above destroy us?

Does He want to let us burn for eternity?

It is enough to make you die laughing!

I won’t buy that any longer!

That is in the past, Jan.

That is poverty!

Anyone who still wants to believe that belongs with the blind little sheep of the Saviour.

But you won’t see me there.

I don’t care a jot for that preaching, that is for other people, in my family they have other thirst and hunger!”

That is Mina for you!

She is like all God’s life, blessed happiness.

They talk this evening until deep into the night.

They cannot get enough of it.

They fall asleep dreaming and fly at the same time.

Anyone who wants to follow them and experience that as well, must knock the ‘Grim Reaper’s’ crown from his cruel head and pull out his tongue, that horrible creature still lives amongst people and lets them cry until they become completely mad from it, but still that monster is tolerated by millions of people in this world.

That frightening damnation must go, must be killed, you must cut off its throat.

Our Lord thinks that is wonderful.

Because now HIS child will get to know HIM, differently, and better!

Now everything is love and happiness, eternal life!

Does the adult not want that?

Children do!

And did HE not say once, a long time ago ... ‘become like a child and you will have ‘ME’.’

Jan, Anneke and Mina are those children, and believe it, definitely not childish.

Mina is always ready to take care of HIS children.

She, as a midwife, knows HIM, because each baby said to Mina, when it had its first cry: ‘Mina, greetings from Father.

He said, thanks, Mina.

It is going well like that.

We know each other, Mina!

Take good care of MY children!’

And who wishes to still fool Mina that HE, Our Lord, damns HIS own children?

Now it is just a question of how you feel this, but there is something else!

Now you must first bring yourself to the church.

And then out again as well.

You must want to rise above the top of the church, because it is above it where you listen to this inner life and can feel, and then HE will speak as a loving Father to your ‘self’!

That other thing, says Mina, and she has known that for many years now, is ‘monkey business’!

It is chattering ... and she does not want that any more, because it puts people in their own grave where they cry until their tears run dry, and waste their strength!

She does not want that and Jan and Anneke don’t either!

“Where are Miets and Teun, mother?” Jeus asks Crisje when he arrives home.

“Yes, that is true, they have to go to bed.”

“Then I will just put them to bed, Mother.”

Five minutes later Crisje hears the screaming.

“Come on and make it quick, get into bed.

It is already too late for little children.

Will you get on with it?

No excuses.

None, I want nothing to do with excuses, get to bed and that is all.”

Hendrik and Gerrit do not let him order them about.

Yet, they will have to listen to father Jeus.

He is now Crisje’s right hand.

She is sitting there behind the stove dead tired.

And having a nice little snooze.

Crisje has been working for farmer Hosman all day on the land, in order to earn something, or she will not make it.

Where will this ship strand?

Where and how will it end?

She cannot bear thinking about it.

Jeus tucks the youngest children into bed and they listen.

They are well-behaved for him, because he gives them the feeling that he is father.

He watches over these lives, even if Gerrit jeers at him and Bernard laughs.

Johan doesn’t care.

He is not interested.

Jeus is playing at being father!

He got those rights from the tall Hendrik, and he is an enormous support for Crisje.

Now that the youngest children are sleeping, they start a conversation and Crisje gets to hear everything from him again.

A woman has a right to this, he feels, and that goes without saying.

“Those ones, mother, knew all about me.”

“They know that from Mina, Jeus.

Yes, they are good people and they are happy with each other.

I know!

Jan is so good for Anneke!”

He now sees tears.

He feels Crisje’s suffering.

When the tears are falling, Tall Hendrik is also standing in their midst, and they are sitting down at the table again with each other and father kisses mother.

However, father is also yonder and is now playing his violins to pieces!

Nevertheless, he understands really well ... that playing of his father means nothing.

It is worthless!

It is very nice to talk about it now and again.

It is really good, of course, but father can tell him more!

What can father earn for mother with his playing?

Nothing!

Not a cent!

Now, that is the sacred truth!

Can they live from it?

Can father pay and earn the land lease by his playing?

No!

It is nonsense!

But how will things work out, he contemplates further for himself and now thinks for the whole house, it is the worries, it’s surprising that adults make such a fuss about these matters, which are not worth anything, after all?

When Crisje gets to hear:

“When I talk, mother, people like that, don’t they, but what good is it to me?” now she knows and it is clear to her that Jeus is carrying all these burdens with her.

“What will it buy me, mother?

Nothing!

If I could only earn money with it, I would talk day and night and tell them everything.

But that is something completely different.”

When Crisje says that he may not use the gifts of Our Lord to make money, he also knows that is so and they agree with each other cheerfully.

They are now of one feeling, it is one thinking and understanding, but there are those cursed worries!

Today, Crisje knows, her Jeus has become older.

He is already talking like an adult.

No, even though father plays all his violins until they break, even though Tall Hendrik is still alive, there is nothing which can take away this love from them, they are hungry.

There is misery!

Then try talking cheerfully!

Try laughing in a different way!

That costs you your own heart.

You are now cheating yourself and your love.

Tall Hendrik can play his violins until they break, as much as he likes, here they are faced with reality.

They are up to their necks in it.

The misery of it reaches their lips, it is almost there, almost ...

Now the last part and then?

Only then do people take action.

However, that will be a while yet, but it will come!

It is the stark reality, Crisje knows, Jeus is right!

Should she have let Hendrik leave for the ‘stage’ after all?

Then she would probably have had the money now to conquer this battle.

Yes ... then?

What would she have had then?

She suddenly feels it.

Does away with those horrible thoughts.

Who wants to take her back to human destruction?

It is digging up the past, scratching because of lice, which are not there!

The supernatural world of Jeus has no meaning for him, it lies like all the nice things in this world in the ‘street gutter’ on the Grintweg.

They will die yet from hunger.

Now, because he has to accept the stark reality, he has already forgotten his mighty guardian angel from just a while ago.

It does not occur to his childish brain either to ask that man whether he knows of some more money lying about, which is there for the taking.

That isn’t there either.

And why not?

The question is not a conscious one.

Those feelings are not there.

The bare and naked truth places him on his own two feet.

There is now a big hole between them, and they see that as well, because he feels that he cannot earn a cent with all that talk about heavens, angels, who can now ‘drop dead’!

Jeus feels hit right in his face.

And there is also one there which he will have to accept from behind.

Nevertheless, he fights back, consciously, when he throws into space: ‘Just play now, father, but don’t make me laugh!’

Is Tall Hendrik now still able to play his violins until they break?

I think that he does not know what to do with himself and suddenly cringes from the pain, at least if he can feel this misery; after all, he is the father of these seven children.

What concerns Jeus, the angels also know that and the Tall One as well.

They are the ones who possess the natural sense and life.

Of course, also the consciousness, that is the case after all, Jeus knows, he has seen those truths, in order to understand everything, but they are powerless!

Can those angels not manipulate his life now!

There are enough possibilities, but this is something different, also for Tall Hendrik!

Where the Tall One lives, they pay with notes of one million and they cannot be exchanged here, the Tall One knows now!

They would only come to grief because of it.

Still this life is manipulated.

Despite all this misery, the wisdom is very much alive and shows maternal concern.

If the child of the earth lies on that heart to have a rest for a moment, it feels surrounded by peace and happiness.

Yet, even then there are worries, but you must now look at them differently.

However, who is able to do that?

This ‘Harp life’, believe it, gets spatial strings.

Soon this life will be played on, Jan Lemmekus!

Then black will become snow white.

And the night as the day!

There will then be no hour any more and no time.

Faith in everything will now become knowledge.

And the Grim Reaper will lie at your feet in smithereens!

Then people will do an about-turn and follow one path, will no longer mutter and complain and will not drink their fill.

What they will now receive, is the pure wine of Our Lord!

How the sounds will be then, which resound through this life of Jeus, they will come from the heavens!

Of course, I am going too far.

Mina knows all about it.

However, the higher you go, the sweeter everything becomes, and we rise above all this human carry-on of the earth, your nice Grintweg, your Montferland as well, which is so dear to you!

However, the Tall One will be there as well!

When Jeus waits for a kiss from Crisje, he gets to hear: “You are not yet father, as long as you know that.”

Then he knows that he must first earn that.

Nevertheless, you would think, if you are father after all?

And a while later all those eyes close.

You can hear a soft zooming.

And by the spinning of these souls garments are woven, their own colour for each one of them.

But that Tall Hendrik ...

This is also great work.

I must say and agree, you are making progress there.

Your eyes are now opened for eternity!

It is worthwhile telling everyone about!

Jan and Anneke, also Mina already know it.

Now this misery isstill to be sorted out and you will have made it, Tall Hendrik!