Making amends -- Sources

Source texts from the books by Jozef Rulof for the article ‘Making amends’.
By Ludo Vrebos, based on the books by Jozef Rulof.
These sources presume the prior reading of the article ‘making amends’.

Alcar’s past

In the book ‘The Origin of the Universe’, in the chapter ‘Alcar’s past’ Alcar describes a number of his past lives during which he made amends to other people:
When I began to explain my lives to you, I told you that I would only show you those lives in which I had to make up.
The Origin of the Universe, 1939
Alcar first shows André (Jozef Rulof) a past life during which Alcar possessed the mother’s body:
I’m going back thousands of years and during those thousands of years I lived on earth several times.
During the first life that I’m going to follow I had the female organism.
That is an amazing and incredible problem, but every human being who enters here will experience it.
I also pass on in other lives and that is the most incredible of all, though it is the truth.
It is merely for the soul, the soul must experience that or we would not advance.
I explained that to you.
Inner life must develop and that is only possible when we can experience the plan of creation which requires human organisms.’
‘So, after all, that material body is only of secondary importance, Alcar?’
‘Yes, André, but haven’t you known that for a long time?
However marvellous and mighty that earthly body, it is not important any more and will die.
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As a woman, Alcar gave birth to two children during that life:
This is where I lived, André.
Here I gave birth to two children.’
‘I beg your pardon?
You gave birth to two children?’
‘Do you find that incredible?’
‘No, I don’t, Alcar, but it is so remarkable.’
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However, the two children did not bring any happiness:
‘Here, André, I cursed myself and others.
This was my life and here I began to make up.
Look, André, I lived in that quiet environment on the edge of this forest.’
André felt himself sink away deeply, the present-day earth disappeared before his eyes and a different world, the past, revealed itself.
Then he began to see.
My God, he thought, how is it possible.
In a simple hut he saw a human being, to the left and right animal skins were suspended.
He understood what it meant.
‘Now I connected you with the past, André, look at this mother.’
She was an old woman and she sat there quietly.
A mountain of misery surrounded her; she was poor and embittered.
There was hatred in her; he clearly felt that.
It was quiet and he looked up at his leader.
He dared not speak a word and he waited for what would happen.
Alcar said: ‘I’m going to connect you with her.
Try to feel her and ask me if you want to know something.’
André felt himself descend into this being.
What am I going to experience now?, he thought.
There was terrible hatred in her.
She thought of putting an end to her life, because she was here alone and deserted.
Where were her children?
Now that he thought of it he immediately saw another image.
He heard Alcar say: ‘I’m going back forty years and you will see what I was shown by the masters in the spheres.’
André now saw that she was much younger and he saw two children, a boy and a girl.
This picture faded.
He subsequently saw that some years had passed.
The girl was ill and her mother sat beside her sickbed.
She was preparing some herbs over a fire.
‘Now an other image’, he heard Alcar say, ‘that child will pass away.’
André saw it happen.
How terrible it was for her.
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André can even understand what people then said to each other, because the meaning of the words enters him as feeling:
Then somebody entered.
It was a robust figure who looked around and approached her.
He was going to witness a remarkable event.
He spoke to the woman and those words he could understand.
He could, because he felt what this being wanted to say.
Before he had pronounced his words, André knew already what he was going to say.
He asked Alcar how this was possible.
‘We know no languages in the spirit, André.
On this side one must feel and experience, merely feel and we are connected by those feelings and pass on into the human being.
It makes no difference whether the event happened in the past and neither in the case of foreign languages, it is no impediment in our life, we connect by feeling and know what they think and want to say.
You can follow him now in all his feelings.
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In a past life, Alcar once destroyed the hunter:
Once I destroyed also him.
Now he will destroy her, she will perish through sorrow and misery.
She cannot endure all that misery, it breaks her heart.
He is a hunter and he was famous for it in his time.
This life was thousands of years ago, André, and yet we can see and experience it again.
This child is going to die, André, and that event is also fixed and on time, this young life will pass away not a second too early or too late.
Her husband, who was invariably away, stayed away when this child passed away.
That was hard, very hard and he, too, will have to make up for that once.
How can people forget themselves in that way?
He loved someone else and he left her in all her misery.
However, she received what she had once done to him, but he did wrong things again and that is what we are like as human beings when we do not understand ourselves.
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And then the other child was also taken from the mother:
Some years went by.
Her boy grew up and this child was also taken away from her.
A wild animal killed it.
Now she had nothing left, she was entirely on her own and deserted.
Will she be able to cope?
Will she be able to hold out?
Has this soul already advanced that far and does she have those powers, which are spiritual property?
The Origin of the Universe, 1939

Longing for wealth

Alcar shows a past life that he experienced before describing life as wife of the hunter:
Look, André, we are now in an other part of the world, in the Far East.
My parents lived here and I’ll show that to you.
I must explain some other conditions to you.
Ask me if anything is not clear enough.
I’m going to connect you with the past, at present our house no longer exists.
You will observe, though, for that is fixed.’
André felt himself sink away and felt that he passed on into an other world.
In front of him he saw a large building.
An ancient building decorated with towers and figures appeared in front of him.
A remarkable scene now developed.
His leader entered and he followed.
His leader halted in a large hall, after having passed through various smaller rooms.
‘Look, André, a mother and her child.’
André saw both beings and he looked at this image in amazement.
How remarkable, he thought, what a mighty wonder!
He heard Alcar say: ‘This mother was my mother, André, and this life precedes the one I just showed you.
In here, however, I experienced hatred and violence and I destroyed him who enters there.’
At the same moment André saw a human being enter.
‘My father, André, and I destroyed him.
In a vicious way I put an end to his life on earth.
I pass into this condition just now because I wanted you to know him and to understand why I had to make up.
I also defiled my mother’s life, though she was ahead of us on the spiritual way.
I have made up to my father and will make up to my mother although in an other life.
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Alcar received a new body in order to be able to evolve further as a soul:
But this is not God’s will, André, this is cause and effect, wonders of laws of nature which we only know on this side, but experience as human beings on earth.
I deceived and robbed my mother.
We were rich in that life and possessed everything man can think of in life on earth.
After my father’s death I left and did not return.
I perished in that life and my mother died of grief.
Thus I had killed both.
I was not punished on earth; I could not be punished, because I killed him in solitude.
Yet, one Power knew and watched my deed.
God knew, though God did not punish me.
Oh, how I did pray when I understood that deep problem.
But it was not until in the spheres of light; there I bent my head and thanked God for everything.
God did not punish me; to the contrary, I received a new body and was born again.
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Soul and personality

In that new life, Alcar could free himself as a soul from the past life by serving the hunter as a wife:
How was my life there?
He could do with me whatever He wanted and the punishment I received at his hands was, as compared with what I had done to him, a blessing.
If I had not committed suicide, deep human sorrow would have been my lot, but that should not have been necessary.
Herein resides an other problem.
Hundreds of laws are associated with it, André, but I cannot explain all those laws, as it would lead too far.
Why did he not kill me?
I had killed him before, hadn’t I?
That force is not present in nature, it is a law of God and God does not know hatred.
Something quite different happened, because I served, I had to serve for I became a mother.
By this motherhood, giving birth, by carrying his life which I endured, I made up.
I owed that to him and I made up.
I gave myself completely and no human being on earth knows this depth, for it is part of God’s wisdom and All-love.
Should I want to explain this big problem to you, I would be connected with the universe, with infinity, cause and effect and thousands of laws.
It is possible though, for we have experienced these wonders and laws ourselves.
He left me because he did not need me; he, too, would have to make that up all the same.
Listen, my son, and realize how deep all this is.
He also had to make that up, for a spirit of the light acts differently, cannot act the way he did.
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Who knows himself?
André was deeply lost in thought.
Who knows himself, who dare say, I’m good, I know, I feel it, it is true?
For him all this was a lesson, a lesson of life that he would never forget.
He could not ask any more questions on that subject, he did not know how to think.
People on earth were like that and they were unaware of all these wonders and laws.
Yes, who knows God?
Not one human being on earth knew God, for they would also know these laws and wonders and that was not possible.
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Caring daughter

Alcar then shows an incarnation which follows on from the lives described.
In that new life, he was born with a mother whom he already knew in the past as a soul.
She had also been his mother during the wealthy life when he had robbed and abandoned his mother:
‘Look, my son, we are in an other country, this time in the West.
My parents lived in the country and worked hard to make a living.
Why would I be born here?
Who attracted me?
I’ll show you this immage.’
André began to see.
‘How is it possible, Alcar.
Is she your mother, again your mother?’
‘Yes, André.
It was she who attracted me; I had to make up to her.
Who connects us?
Is it God?
Is it a law?
If so, that law and also God are infallible, because hundreds of years have passed.
Now isn’t that in itself a great wonder, that two souls find each other on that large planet?
Can we human beings ever assess these laws and wonders?
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During that new life, he got the opportunity to make amends to his mother:
Isn’t it amazing, André, because I destroyed the life of these two beings on earth.
I did not think of any laws or a God, I only thought of my own life.
Yet I was born here, but we did not have all that wealth.
This time my father was a different soul, he was a stranger to me, but my mother had to do with him.
Now what happened in this life?
I’ll tell you about it, listen.
When my mother carried me, so she had the female body again, she fell into a deep pit.
This happened between the fourth and fifth month.
Apparently nothing was wrong, but a few months after I was born she got into trouble and could not walk any more.
She received help and I grew up.
My father passed away when I was fourteen and my mother and I were left behind.
I had no connection with my father, André, in other words I did not have to make up to him, only my mother and that’s why she would meet him.
So you see that we have to experience many problems.
I said just now that my father passed away when I was fourteen years old.
We both remained behind and I cared for this soul, I worked for her and did my best day and night until I was thirty.
When I was thirty years of age she also passed away.
She had suffered much though it was not her final life; she had to return to the earth and to other lives.
I would meet her once more, which was in Jerusalem, though many centuries later.
I will refer to that later when I have got that far, I’ll now proceed with my own life.
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Alcar has made amends to both parents, by means of which he had brought himself into disharmony during the wealthy life.
So I met both beings and did for them what I should do.
Our souls attracted one another and it is not God, but the law of cause and effect that brings all this about.
Something invisible connects the human being; sorrow caused to others calls us to a halt.
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During this life too, as a caring daughter Alcar possessed the mother’s body:
I also had the female body.
I connected with a being and a child was born.
It was a girl and the soul living in that material organism once became my friend.
From that time on I see this life again several times and I therefore have to do with this inner life.
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And during this life too, the mother remained behind alone:
An illness taking a heavy toll on life on earth, broke this family and I was once more left behind.
Had I not suffered enough yet?
Had I not fully made up to my father and mother?
I was confronted by a new problem, for I faced my own life, suicide.
I thought of suicide, I wanted to put an end to my life, because I was entirely alone on this big earth.
Just imagine that life, my son, feel what it means having to live it.
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This was not the first time that she remained behind lonely and considered suicide.
In the past life with the hunter she had experienced a similar situation.
When her children had died there and her husband stayed away, she was faced with a sorrow that she could not bear in that life:
However, she could not endure this, André, and she put an end to her life on earth.
Look and observe, my boy.’
André saw this horrible scene.
She had strung herself up.
My God, what misery and he looked at his leader.
Alcar was lost in thought.
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Alcar saw this life film in the temple of the soul:
It was long before he could speak and André said to Alcar: ‘You have had to experience that, Alcar?
You once put an end to your life?
And now you are in the fifth sphere?’
‘I am not ashamed of it, André, because I have made it up and have covered that long road.
This happened once.
I saw all this in the temple of the soul together with a lot of misery, when my own film of life was shown to me.’
André’s eyes filled with tears.
This moved him deeply.
His leader was an angel of light and yet he had done it centuries ago.
Alcar looked back at his past life and that required courage.
‘I lived in this material body as an astral human being, André.
I, a particle of God, lived in it, because I am spirit and man, I am soul and life.
As a human being I did not feel love and my soul, so I myself, had to experience that.
I lived, but I did not understand that life.
I had to acquire it and to that end many other lives were needed.
I had returned here to make up, but all that misery broke me and that’s why I put an end to that life.
As a result – and that will now be clear to you, I told you of the soul we followed, she also perished time and again – I did more bad than good and I had to experience this terrible mistake.
My soul, I myself, was eaten up with hatred towards the one who did this to me.
God could not possess love, for this was unbearable and I cursed Him and all those who spoke of Him.
There was faith in me, though Christ had not yet come to earth.
There were other prophets, however, and we had learned to know a God.
Can you sense my feelings, André?
I will return to that time, you can feel that I am the one who lived in that material mother organism.
What do you feel, André?’
‘My feelings lead me from her to you, Alcar, I feel that very clearly.’
‘That’s correct, André.
I descended in that time and accepted that life, my inner life of that time, for a while.
We can pass on into it and we are as we then felt.
I’ll go on now and show and explain a bit more.
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The woman experienced the spiritual consequences of suicide, as described by Lantos in the book ‘The Cycle of the Soul’:
In this life I forgot myself, and what happened now, what happened to me and to my body?
What happened to me will happen to every human being who puts an end to his life.
I was attached to this material organism and had to experience the process of decay that Lantos described.
This was my end on earth and my entrance into the spiritual world.
Look at that corpse, André.
Beside that material organism you see that other being, that astral one and that is the spiritual or inner life, which is I.
I experienced being separated from my material organism and had to wait until it had decomposed.
That corpse was not found until months later and was buried.
Here below is my material body, when it was buried this hut was pulled down and I was forgotten.
This was the end of a human life on earth.
When my material body had decomposed after many years – Lantos described it and he did so for me, otherwise I would have had to give you a complete explanation - I wandered about in the astral world, an empty space, to which there seems to be no end.
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André sees how Alcar follows his own past:
Now we’ll first follow this astral image so that you can see what I experienced.
I’ll pass on into a different condition.
You now see that I am free of my material body, we shall follow it.’
André observed.
He saw the astral being beside the corpse and also that new life entered this lifeless mass.
He subsequently saw this being moving away and Alcar followed his own shade.
‘A remarkable event, André, but horrible for those who have to experience it in reality.’
The astral human being wandered and so did his leader in his present spiritual attunement.
It was an incredible scene.
Alcar continued to follow his own shadow.
If he was ever shown a miracle it was at this moment.
If he was ever inspired with awe for God’s holiness, it was by this event.
My God, how deep everything is, how true Your life is.
A human being as spirit, as life, followed the true and honest reality, the past walked in front of him.
It was unbelievable and yet so natural.
He felt both beings, from the being in front of him he got to that other human being, his leader Alcar.
His leader was a spirit of light because he lived in the spheres of light, in a condition of pure happiness, but in front of him wandered nothing but sorrow and misery, that being had to perish out of ignorance and need.
Oh, how horrible, André thought.
Though he felt the deep truth of this event.
André saw that she sat down and fell asleep immediately.
That is how Lantos had experienced it and so had Alcar and perhaps he, too.
He saw that she woke up and went on again, towards the unknown.
André saw her go and followed her.
He dared not look up any more, was that Alcar?
It was nearly too much for him, he could hardly believe it, but he had to accept it.
He looked at her again and saw her fall down and she then fell asleep again from exhaustion.
Oh, oh, he thought, such misery.
Had this been shown to his leader in the spheres and did he have to experience that there?
It was horrible.
This being lay there, but he dared not ask questions now.
Yet he felt an urge in him and he sensed that Alcar wanted him to ask.
André asked, looking in front of him: ‘How long did this sleep last, Alcar?’
‘It lasted for months, André.’
It is unbelievable, awful and horrible, he thought.
Now he saw an other scene.
He saw she got up again and started her mad journey once again.
Alcar said: ‘This journey lasted fifteen long years, André.
I have experienced that, my son, and that is why I know what grief and sorrow and all other misery on earth means.
There is no sorrow on earth, which I have not experienced.
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However, that also came to an end again as a result of the reincarnation:
However, that end came and that world also dissolved for me and I entered the world of the unconscious.
There I waited for a new body, because I had to proceed and be born again to make up.
In this life, however, I had destroyed more than I had made good, although this life had not been in vain, which I could not understand or feel.
I would have reached a very high age in that life, but I put an end to it when I was sixty-four years old and wandered about in silence for fifteen long years, the years I should have lived.
Lantos told you about that too, and I do not need to explain that to you.
Do you understand, André, to continue this subject for a while, why Lantos was allowed to tell about his life?
He did so for me, because I had too much other work to do.
In addition he could tell about his own experiences, for there was depth in his life and a mighty wonder which is reincarnation on earth, represented in Marianne.
He told of his life on earth, his entrance into the astral world and what he experienced in the life of the spirit.
I said that after that long walk I dissolved in the world of the unconscious and waited for a new birth.
If reincarnation would not be a fact and had not been created for the soul, if God had not given us that mighty grace, believe me, I would have had to live on in that empty space by myself, deserted and there would have been no change for me and those who put an end to their life on earth.
How could I have left that world?
Who could free me from it?
No man and no soul, only God.
But I was to receive a new body, because I still had to make up and to that end I came on earth again.
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For instance, he brought into the light all his wrong thoughts:
There was more to come, because I had to make it all up, even the last wrong thought.
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In order to reach reincarnation, the soul of Alcar descends into the world of the unconscious:
When those fifteen years had passed, André, I dissolved, and an other world attracted me.
Another wonder happened, my son, and you will also see and experience that wonder.
She, André, in front of you, this human being dissolved and you know which world attracted her.
She will live there and wait.
She had to wait for hundreds of years to be attracted again.
Yet, she had to go back to the earth, for all those people to whom she had to make up lived on the planet earth.
And that wonder happened.
Now realize how natural everything is.
You have seen how the universe condensed.
I subsequently showed you how embryonic life condensed and dissolved, when one life passed on into the other life.
We have been able to follow that in everything from the initial stage.
Condensation and dissolution, connection and attraction, birth and death, that is God’s creation.
This soul dissolved again and was attracted by an other world.
Asleep and unaware of anything she would prepare to be born again.
She is still a shadow of reality.
Look, André, how she dissolves, how she gradually disappears, presently you will not see her any more.’
André watched it.
He had got to know another wonder.
It was awe-inspiring, like everything was awe-inspiring and wonderful.
‘Now she is gone, my son, down into this deep darkness.
I explained all this to you before, and now you have been allowed to experience this great wonder.
She, this soul, returned to the first stage, although she was on earth as a human being.
I myself descended in there and was unaware of everything.
An other world admitted me; I lived in it and came to rest.
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In that world of the unconscious, millions of souls are waiting for the reincarnation:
Thus, in this world there are millions of lives, sparks of God.
All are human beings, they once lived on earth and all will experience this, but are unaware of it in their next life on earth.
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The soul goes back to the very first stage, in order to be able to inspire the embryo of the new life.
In order to realize this inspiration, the human consciousness is discarded.
When Alcar connects André with the world of the unconscious which the soul descends into, André has the feeling that he is losing his consciousness:
‘It is a mighty wonder, Alcar, and I have no words for it.
How is it possible, who would ever think of that?
Having to return that far, to the very first stage of everything, no, I did not think of that.’
‘You see that in many conditions we have to return to the initial stage in order to be able to answer many questions, for that’s where the answer is found, the holy truth of everything.
The soul has to return to the first stage to enable inner life to pass into the embryo.
I have explained that to you, so I need not refer to it.
That first stage is part of the darkness, before God revealed Himself.
So there was no consciousness yet – I do not speak of God but of the human stage – and because there was no consciousness the soul is subjected to this activity when we enter here as human being, as spirit.
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After the life with the hunter which ended as a result of suicide, Alcar incarnated as a caring daughter in order to make amends to her mother.
In that life she later gets a family, but loses her husband and child due to illness.
As a result, she ends up in a similar situation to the past life.
Again, she thinks about escaping her misery by robbing herself of life.
However, something in her now offers resistance to this thought, as a result of which she does not take action.
Alcar says this about himself:
I remained alive; I did not put an end to it and died in old age.
I had not put an end to my life but wandered about lonely and deserted, for something made me stay and that is what I explained to you.
I would awaken in my own life.
Something within me resisted all that misery.
Do you feel how we awaken, André?
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This is why she remained alone precisely:
I, however, had to show what I wanted, I had already experienced that activity, that earlier life, but I was not entirely free of it and was still connected with that life.
I was left behind which is also amazing, for I ask you, why me and not the others?
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It is then repetition or going higher:
I had to prove what I wanted to bear my sorrow or perish again.
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That life was therefore also in order to grow further in this:
Consequently, that life was for myself, but I had not earned anything yet.
We now see, André, that one life may be faced with many problems and that we do not know these problems.
Nevertheless, everything has its meaning.
If we are prepared to bear, there will be an end to all that misery sooner or later, for there must be an end to it, because we have to pass on into other lives and make up in them as well.
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The feelings for suicide also had to be conquered:
For why did this child pass away so soon?
Why did that other being who was my husband pass away?
Why was I left behind?
Problems again, but we know now that my feelings to commit suicide dominated.
Who provides for all this?
Who wants us to experience that and who looks after this cosmic order?
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Then Alcar made the transition again from woman to man:
Once again I would return to the earth.
In all those conditions I had acquired mother love and I proceeded to the creative power.
In one life I received wealth, in another I had to create my own condition.
In one life it took hundred of years before I was born again, in an other less time passed before I received a new body.
This also has a cosmic meaning, but I won’t follow that now.
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Alcar follows an incarnation in Egypt:
The next life I observed and into which I had passed, I lived in Egypt.
All this is so amazing, André, and mysterious for people on earth; but you can believe me, I’m telling the holy truth.
I assisted with a cosmic plan, an event related to deep human history.
I assisted with the building of the pyramid of Giza.
I saw myself, and I saw the one I destroyed.
We were employed bringing up blocks of stone one by one.
He, who I destroyed, stole my love.
I had been waiting for a long time for the right moment and that moment came.
During a struggle I pushed him over the side and he died a few days later.
In doing so I created sorrow and grief again.
That life was chaos and I entered the astral world.
I was born again and I saw that I lived in Egypt once more.
In that life I was the slave of my master.
One day my master was out hunting when we were suddenly attacked.
I jumped in front of him and the monster killed me.
A very simple event, but it had to happen.
I died at a young age.
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In a next life in Jerusalem he reached peace:
Come, André, I know this here and you too will know this Holy City.
Once we lived here, I as the father, my mother as my wife and he, my friend, as our child.
I’ll show you that image, it retains good memories.
Here I awakened, my son, I woke up and became conscious.’
Alcar now turned into a very narrow street.
‘Our little home has disappeared, but I’ll find the spot where I once lived.
Spirituality is and remains forever, it cannot be broken nor removed.
Look, André, one of my many dwellings on earth.’
André began to observe.
He saw the past in front of him.
That home was built of stone and clay.
What was he about to experience this time?
Alcar entered and he followed.
His leader said to him: ‘Do you see that woman there, André?’
That very moment an other image manifested itself and he saw what his leader asked him.
‘Yes, Alcar, I see and it is amazing.’
‘My wife, André.
I’ll show you a few scenes of that time and connect you with her inner life.
Look at her inner radiance!
Look how she radiates and what her inner level is like.
She is thirty years old and she once was my mother.
An incredible wonder and yet this is the holy truth.
Her soul is prepared to give much love, she has a rich spirit.
The inner property encompasses everything man has acquired in thousands of lives.
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In this life, Alcar passed on to a higher grade of feeling:
I’ll show you an other scene.
Look, my son, the past is open to you.’
André saw an other human being.
This man was tall and broad and in the prime of life.
With him was a child, a boy of about six and they entered the home.
He felt what this meant.
That was bound to be Alcar.
He looked at his leader and waited for Alcar’s confirmation.
The woman embraced them both.
They subsequently sat down and he heard them speak.
This, too, was amazing, for he understood every word spoken.
They discussed every-day matters concerning their child.
Alcar said: ‘That’s me, once it was me, André.
I lived here.
This is my mother of centuries ago and this child is my friend I told you about.
There was quiet in this life, at any rate during the first years and I learned to know myself.
In this life and in many others I came to rest and I passed on into an other level of feeling.
I explained that to you on our last journey.
I had to work hard for our daily bread.
Here, in the Holy Land, that was not yet holy and of which nothing was known, although there were rumours of something wonderful, but there was no certainty.
It was not known that Christ would come.
That happened a good many years later, but we did not live to witness that.’
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Then Alcar focused on art:
‘Where did you go after Jerusalem, Alcar?’
‘I was subsequently born in Italy, and I returned there twice.
That first life ended through a piece of stone, for I wanted to acquire the art of sculpture.
Once again I returned there and attained a great age.
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These are just a few from thousands of lives:
I have lived thousands of lives in those millions of years.
In one life I had the male organism, in an other the female organism.
Every human being has to experience that, to make up and return, to be born on earth and to die.
Then, the entrance into the spiritual world; constantly into the world of the unconscious to wait for a new body in which to descend, and make up for what happened centuries and centuries ago.
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As a result, he reached the spheres of light:
As a result, I evolved, if this had not been possible there would be no end to my life on earth and I would never have attained the spheres of light.
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The making amends brings us to the spheres of light:
Not a single soul can evade this, for if this was not possible, how could people ever attain the spheres of light?
In the spheres of light there should be nothing within us, which belongs to the earth or it will stop us and block our entrance to those pure spheres.
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In this way, the inner being awakens:
I want to tell all this to mankind, I want to open their eyes and guard them from their own ruin.
As I said before, if I can reach one human being I’ll be satisfied.
It is a mighty grace to guard one human being from all that misery.
We all put an end to our life on earth, without exception.
We all asked why and what for and cursed God in heaven and yet we have learned to understand ourselves, we now live in the spheres of light and others have already reached the All.
Such is our life, in this way inner man awakens.’
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The hunter also became an artist

The hunter had everything in him in order to become an artist:
I’ll just connect you with an other problem and that is also a wonder.
I experienced that in my last life on earth when I was an artist.
I am going to connect you with the one we just saw and who went away.
That is possible from here.
Look, André, he who left me and did not return any more.
He was terrible in this life, but in the life preceding this one it was I who destroyed him.
He also had to experience dozens of lives before he passed to his final life on earth.
In my last life on earth when I was an artist, and consequently many centuries later, this soul was my teacher of art.
Who could ever have thought that, who could know this and who will accept it?’
‘How is it possible, Alcar.’
‘I have been able to follow all that in the spheres of light.
He became a famous human being and he will always be remembered on earth.
Now just imagine that and stay in this condition.
Who could ever have thought of that?
If this had been his and my last life, if there was no reincarnation, neither of us would have become artists.
Keep this picture of the future in mind and feel how mighty and deep it is.
If God had not given us the grace of reincarnation, there would have been no change for him and for me.
Look at him.
He already has an impulsive nature and he has every quality to become an artist.
There he goes, this soul people cannot fathom.
He hunts and goes on hunting till his dying day, though one day he will be a famous artist.
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This man becomes the teacher of Anthony van Dyck:
It was not until in the seventeenth century that we were on earth together and he was my master.
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However, before he had already got to know him in the spheres of light:
We had already met in the spheres and there, too, he was my master.
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They reincarnated for a task:
We were subsequently born and both accomplished a mission.
Now imagine this, André, we would not accomplish that mission until thousands of years later.
Wouldn’t we be grateful to God?
Observe my life and his.
The earth will not forget us; our art is there and will remain so.
We both, however, went our own ways and I had not seen him in all those centuries.
When this life was over, his soul, he himself, was attracted by other lives and he would make up.
To that end he had to pass from one life on to another, from the male body to the female body.
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On earth, they no longer knew anything about this past:
‘What a wonder, Alcar.
Did you know on earth that you had met him before?’
‘No, it was not until I had reached the third sphere that all my lives were shown and also this one.
On earth I did not know anything about it, nor did he, because we had not advanced that far.’
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Their past of thousands of years ago had sunk far:
He, my master on earth, once, however, thousands of years ago, my husband.
However unbelievable this is for the earth, I was allowed to explain this to you on this side and every human being will be connected with that on this side.
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It is only when everything has been brought into harmony that the invisible ties break:
‘What happens, Alcar, when everything has been made up?’
‘Then auras will tear apart and hatred, jealousy and all evil dissolve and we can go wherever we like.
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Then the misery experienced has been transformed into a higher feeling:
When a human being puts an end to his material life, it is the very, very last thing we can do.
The deep sorrow within us, the horrible event we had to experience can never be forgotten and inner life will warn us even in unconsciousness.
When we receive misery and sorrow again, that experience will manifest itself and we feel a contradictory force develop within us.
This is the experienced misery and all that sorrow of former lives.
If we could not return, it would be impossible, for it is exactly in the material organism that inner life awakens and man will experience that for which he has received an other new body.
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The more misery people have created, the more lives are needed in order to bring the spiritual balance back into equilibrium:
How mighty everything was.
Not one human being could oversee all that on earth, this should be experienced on this side.
Floating, Alcar went on and he felt curious what he was going to experience now.
How his leader had suffered.
Now he really understood why Alcar knew about all that misery on earth.
Because of that the soul awakened and man passed on to other conditions.
Thousands of lives had been experienced before man could take leave of the earth forever.
How could people on earth ever accept this?
Yet it was all so simple and natural, or life would come to a standstill and man was after all a Divine being?
When would we ever get there?
He had seen enough of this life and he understood that this could not be attained in one life.
Some people faced a high mountain of sins and mistakes.
For instance, all those people who tortured and killed others.
Not one human being, but thousands.
Wouldn’t they have to make up for that?
Could they do that in one single life on earth?
In that life in which they had destroyed those people?
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Alcar does not describe all his lives:
‘Do you only follow your last lives, Alcar?’
‘Yes, André, I’ll explain some of my lives on earth to pass on to my final life, in order to give you a clear picture of what I want to show you.
I cannot follow all my lives, because we have lived in thousands of conditions.
That would be too much and is not necessary either.
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In this way, Alcar only wishes to illustrate the working of the reincarnation:
The many other lives have an entirely different meaning, they were important but without depth.
I’ll follow one course and I’ll presently explain other wonders to you.
I therefore follow what will be sufficient for you to get a clear picture of reincarnation.
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In thousands of lives, we build up our feeling:
You will also realize that life on earth serves to acquire feeling.
Merely feeling which becomes the alleviating and healing love which supports others and it is not until then that we live the way God wants us to.
We must acquire pure and absolute love, which requires thousands of lives on earth.
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The same souls

With all these examples, Alcar wishes to show that we meet precisely those people with whom we are involved on the basis of our own past:
All these souls with whom I had to do, André, followed various other lives and experienced various problems, their own karma and they also had to make something of themselves.
But there is not one human being, listen what I say, who will meet lives, souls, he has nothing to do with.
Do you feel what that means?’
‘You mean to say that we only meet those people with whom we have to do?’
‘Indeed, only those to whom we have to make up.
All those other people, all those millions on earth, experience their own karma and meet people whom they have to do with; they are their fathers, mothers, brothers or sisters, for one law brings them together and that is the law of cause and effect.’
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We cannot forget a single soul in this:
On the other hand they cannot miss out any human being, for all sorrow or misery must dissolve and we know how that happens.
These laws are infallible and no human being can evade them.’
‘There is hardly any home without sorrow, Alcar, have all those people to do with one another?’
‘Yes, André, they met in the past, that sorrow will dissolve now even though they may think that God curses them.
Follow life on earth, you now see through all that misery and you understand that all are making up.’
‘It is amazing, Alcar, how natural everything is.’
‘It is not until all those people have made up that they start working on themselves and that is to acquire nourishment for the mind.
We’ll first of all meet those souls to whom we have brought the deepest misery, as that karma dominates.
We’ll subsequently follow other conditions and everything will dissolve as a matter of course.
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We remain connected to our own feeling and acting:
Human hatred brings us back to where we awakened that hatred.
A murder will connect us later again with him or her, who we have killed.
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This takes us to all corners of the world:
Now we are here, then again there.
One day in the West, then again in the East, the North and the South, to experience dozens of lives there.
These all are spiritual laws, André, and that is what inspiring life has to experience.
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To the spheres

When Alcar had made amends for his karma, he passed on to the Land of Twilight:
After that I was born in the Far East, one life in the female body.
I then returned to the South and when I passed away I entered the hereafter.
I could not return any more.
At the border of the Land of Twilight where Gerhard entered I also awoke and was convinced of my eternal life.
I had experienced my karma.
I’ll refer to that when I have got that far.
I’ll explain to you how I attained the first sphere, which you know already, though I did not yet tell you about it myself.
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This sphere was described by Gerhard in the book ‘Those who came back from the Dead’.
Alcar let Gerhard tell his life story, so that the reader now understands in what atmosphere Alcar arrived in the hereafter:
I was a little ahead of Gerhard and that is why I decided to let him tell of his spiritual life, so that I would not have to do it later.
Gerhard expressed, as it were, my own life, for I also descended into the darkness to acquire something.
I remained down there for years.
I helped thousands of beings and in that way I accepted my higher condition.
I felt the way Gerhard lived and felt, but there was art in me.
You’ll now understand that I connected myself with Gerhard when I knew that he was to come to this side, to let him tell of his own life and because you had known Gerhard on earth.
I sent one of my own assistants to him and you also know now that this was arranged in advance.
Gerhard was convinced, he descended into the hell, experienced thousands of wonders, although they were demonic powers and influences, and in doing so he reached the first sphere.
I also experienced that, André.
When you follow and understand his life you’ll know what my life was like in those days and you can feel it.
I was, therefore, like Gerhard, I was aware that my possession resided therein and once I understood this, I pulled out all the stops and wanted to reach the first sphere at all cost.
I said that there are many people of the earth who enter here and give themselves, but who have never been able to do so on earth.
That again is a great mystery.
Those beings were on earth to make up for something and have done so, but were to die there at an early age.
Gerhard was one of those beings; he had those powers through which he was able to reach the first sphere in a short period of time.
For many others this is not so easy as they don’t have this depth.
For Gerhard this depth was his great willpower which he possessed.
Others also arrive in this sphere, though they are not as strong as Gerhard.
This proves that all beings feel differently, that we admittedly possess one love but that we have different qualities.
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Alcar further developed himself in art:
Consequently, we now go to the first sphere where I’ll continue.
When I entered, my feelings for art awakened.
At the beginning I made a journey and assumed my own sphere and I subsequently turned to art.
I did not stay there though.
The others proceeded and indulged in spiritual art, but at times I descended to the earth and into the dark spheres for long periods of time to help others.
My master supported me in everything and he understood me perfectly.
Go on the way you do, he said, there will be a great surprise later.
I again descended into the hell, helped many unfortunate people there and subsequently returned to the spheres of light to devote myself completely to art.
On earth I had already attained a considerable level, though not yet the level I could reach as a master.
Here my feeling for art awakened.
I also learned to know life in the darkness, though I did not understand that I was followed in everything from the higher spheres.
Even then, André, I was under the leadership of my master Cesarino.
This master was to accomplish a mission to the earth, to which end many assistants were needed.
I became one of his thousands of assistants.
That way the first years went by.
Slowly but surely the fifteenth century approached.
I went on feeling the life God created and in this way my art developed.
Then, when I thought it would do me good I asked my master permission to make a long journey.
I’ll go with you, he said.
We went to the earth and I studied my art, which I had already left behind in the south.
At that time, however, I had not advanced that far.
That desire now rose in me to be allowed to give to the earth what I now possessed and I asked my master whether that was possible.
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His spiritual leader asked him whether he knew what a new incarnation can involve:
‘Are you prepared to accept everything that you might experience on earth?’ he replied.
‘Is that so terrible?’
‘Don’t forget that you possess light here, you feel happy, you are free from cold and hardship, from every passion and when you accept a material body, that body belongs to the physical world.
If you want to live and to be born there, you must accept everything the earth may give you.
Also illness, for you’ll have to contend with that, nobody on earth can set himself free of it.
I need not tell you that, for you know this life, we have been in the sphere of the earth and you made a study of it.
You’ll experience that again, although your life will differ from the life of those who are there for some deed or other.
You also have to make up and this life could be considered a happy one.
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However, Alcar did not let himself be stopped:
After that I took long walks in the spheres and I arrived at a decision.
You have seen me and my fellow artists, so I can leave that out.
I prepared myself, André, though I did not understand yet that this had started a long time beforehand.
When I began that journey on earth with my own master it was already part of this event.
The years went by and many began to feel this approaching event.
All were convinced where they wanted to go to and realized what they accepted.
Here in the spheres we possessed something, we were free from cold and illness, we were happy, and we might experience a lot of misery on earth, but we could not have stayed here.
I again descended into the darkness, where the brothers also suffer, but by working there an other sphere is attained and one serves, though this serving is not so simple, for you know the hell.
The time came when I began to feel it.
Many years had gone by in which I completely devoted myself to art.
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His last reincarnation

And then the time for reincarnation had dawned:
Then followed the years of meditation and I felt that wonder rise in me.
None of us spoke about it; this was too deep and too wonderful for life itself and beyond description.
You feel that you become very quiet and you want to be alone all the time.
It is as if the entire creation lies within you.
I often wandered in nature and at times I descended into the darkness again to help others.
Suddenly I felt that awe-inspiring activity rise in me and I returned to the spheres.
Then, my son, the wonder happened that you experienced a while ago.
I dissolved; I felt that I was raised into an other world, an other condition.
I saw that I faded away.
An unbelievable wonder happened within me.
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Alcar reincarnated as Anthony van Dyck:
Jozef now says: ‘Listen then ... all of this is from master Alcar, Anthony van Dyck ..., my master in the spirit.
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All his described lives served in order to make amends and to master spiritual love:
‘What wonders did you experience, Alcar.’
‘We all experience thousands of wonders, André, and all people will experience these wonders when they enter here.
They have to experience it, because they will descend into their past when they have completed their cycle of life on earth.
You no doubt feel how deep everything is and this is bound to be mighty, for we human beings have been on our way for millions of years.
We have discarded and accepted thousands of lives.
We passed on from one life to another and all those lives served to acquire spiritual love and to show our gratitude.
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Nothing is lost

After his life as Anthony van Dyck, he went to the hereafter again:
My end on earth came and I entered the spiritual world.
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He was aware that he had died on earth:
I knew I had died.
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But he still did not know his past lives:
I returned to the darkness again and I wanted to try and attain the spheres, for me the third sphere, within a period of ten to twenty years.
I worked on myself and nothing was too much for me.
However, I retained my master.
I was completely unaware of my former life in the south; neither was it explained to me, that would happen later.
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Working in the darkness ensured a fast awakening:
Day and night, speaking in worldly terms, I was down there and you know how difficult that work is.
Those who want, can make rapid progress and I attained that sphere in a very short period of time, though twenty-five years had gone by.
I had a powerful will and I did not relax until I had achieved that.
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When Alcar had reached the third sphere of light, he got to know all his lives on earth:
In the third sphere, years after my death on earth, I learned to know my own past.
There, in my past, resided those feelings, and they were related to it.
Do you feel how deep this is, and that we are unable on earth to understand this?
Every human being will live to see this on earth and at this side.
However, only on this side are we shown the many lives we have lived.
It is here that we can descend into the past.
Nothing has been lost, everything is fixed – to the smallest details.
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One day everyone will see his own life film:
At this side we learn to know everything, down to the deepest past, because it will be shown to us.
Every human being, every soul has its own film of life on which he can see and know himself.
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Later, Alcar got to know all his past lives, together with his twin soul, with whom he is eternally connected:
‘Have you also been here with your twin-soul, Alcar?’
‘Yes, André.
Man cannot leave out a single transition after entering this side.
They will learn to understand all that; nothing is lost, not even a single thought emitted will be forgotten or left out.
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People make amends for everything, until there are no longer any imperfections in the inner life:
For eternal life demands of the life that has captured a place, that everything has been made up, so that there are no more irregularities in the life of the soul, as everything must fit and every transition be experienced.
We would not be able to move an inch on this side, if we knew nothing about that.
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In order to get to know themselves, people follow all the lives experienced:
We have to know everything living below our own attunement, or we also are not conscious, don’t know ourselves, because it has to do with our inner life.
We shall learn to know all the lives we have lived.
If there is just one thought not in harmony with our real life, it cuts us off from advancing further and from eternal life.
That mistake will have to be amended and made up, or we keep feeling this disturbance and can’t go on.
For there are many things in ourselves which stop that process.
Consequently, you can’t enter higher spheres, if you don’t know the lower ones.
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For the going further, every inharmonious thought is cleared away:
Everybody, as I said before, will experience that.
Then we go on and feel relaxed.
We could not feel relaxed and could not concentrate on other matters, if we did not know creation.
There must be no disturbance in ourselves here; we are always open and entirely free of all disharmonic thoughts.
Those who wish to descend into the darkness must learn to know that darkness, even though they are higher spirits, or it is not their own.
What I mean is, that he or she living in the higher spheres, has to know that, or they are no conscious beings.
Here no being can make progress unless he knows all those conditions, then he has advanced that far to prepare for higher life.
He who harms others on earth will have to make it up, for it calls him to a halt.
There are people who have already reached the spheres of light and yet cannot go on, because things have happened which the spirit has to make up first.
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On earth, the materially attuned human being still does not feel that every inharmonious thought brings unrest.
In the spheres of light that unrest will obstruct:
Here we feel what impedes and stops us.
That is not possible on earth, because man is geared to material life.
But when they enter our life, the life of the soul, which is a higher stage, you feel that they have to start thinking differently, and that our life differs from the life they had on earth.
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It is only in the fourth sphere of light that people reach the spiritual peace:
Every soul, every spiritual being living on our side, has experienced all those transitions I showed you.
That does not happen until they have reached the fourth sphere, though it is also possible in the third sphere.
Yet very few do, as all of us wish to reach the fourth sphere, which is the first happy sphere.
Only then do we feel relaxed and capable of experiencing this; then we feel very happy to have reached a sphere of existence, which is the spiritual attunement.
The fourth sphere is – as I explained to you many times – the spiritual attunement on this side, but we go on to reach the fourth cosmic degree, where we shall arrive a few thousand years from now.
Transitions and transitions again, to be able to enter this elevated condition.
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Then Alcar reached the fifth sphere of light:
Now I live in the fifth sphere and you know what my life is like.
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Once Alcar has shown André his past lives, he goes with André to the fourth sphere of light in order to get to know the origin of the universe and the birth of the soul in the temple of the soul:
This belongs to the past, and behind that, behind all this, is another past; therefore, we will descend ever deeper into the soul, and in doing so we will also learn to understand the wonders of the universe.
Man is a great wonder and it is the soul, which experiences this wonder.
God knows every depth, as there is a beginning and an end.
God knew what He wanted and created.
There is a divine end, because we advance ever higher, until the soul enters the Divine Spheres.
The human organism will decay, but the soul continues and experiences life.
But there must have been a beginning, and this beginning you will learn to know.
And you will know reincarnation on earth, which I will explain to you in various ways and in various circumstances.
And now, André, we will leave the earth and visit the fourth sphere.
There you will be connected with the universe.
The masters, as I said before, are awaiting us presently.
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In order to follow the depth of the soul, they will then also travel to other places in the universe:
There, André, you will experience wonders, the reality of which you will see in other places of the universe.
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You make amends to yourself

During a contact evening, Jozef Rulof is asked the question whether other people must make amends to us:
“Do they have to make amends to us?”
Oh, madam, why, why?
Yes, they do not have to make amends to you.
‘Do they have to make amends to us?’
The human being, madam, sir, who does wrong makes amends for himself.
Can you feel this?
If you are beaten and kicked, madam, then you have nothing to make amends for, and the other one cannot make any amends to you.
He can, later, but then you will already be further.
And that gentleman and that lady who still hit and kick and who hate and who destroy, well, they will have to begin with their own battle one day, and they will make amends for themselves.
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Then the human being begins to awaken:
And if one day in a strange country, during the night when it is dark, before a large wood with snakes, crocodiles and dangerous creatures, if you meet a human being there, and he asks you the way, sir and madam, then you do not say: ‘Just turn left’, then you know that in five minutes they will have already lost a leg because of a crocodile like that, or will be bitten by a poisonous reptile like that, then you do something for yourself, then you try, even if there is danger, to take those people through those unfamiliar woods and darknesses, because then the spark of serving lives under your heart.
And then you have little bit of love for the things that live.
Don’t you?
If that begins, then you will stand differently in the world and then you will be busy awakening.
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